| Location | Tulsk |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 02/01/2008 |
| Date of Death | 02/01/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,572 since 22/06/2009 |
| Creator |
I first found out i was having Addison in the middle of may 2007
It was a real shock, as she was not planed. I first saw her on the 12 june 2007 and she was 7weeks old , i fell in love, with this tiny wee baby who was the size of a peanut growing inside me, i cryed as i was so happy. My expected due date was the 25th jan 2008...
As far as i knew everything was going fine, right down to the 27th December, i just didnt feel right, i thought it might be all the excitement over christmas but
i was wrong... I went into the doctor and it was from there my life started to look pointless,they checked for a heartbeat but they were not sure wether it was mine or the baby's so they sent me straight up to hospital.. We were seen straight away and that's when we were told that our baby had no heart beat,i will never forget that moment,it was like someone ripped my heart from my chest... Especially as i had a check up in the hospital on the 17th dec 2007 and everything was perfect,i even saw my baby kicking and punching.. So my baby became an angel within 10days.. We went home that night, nothin felt right,i couldnt get my head around the fact that i was going to go into labour and have my baby but she wasnt coming home with me... On the 2nd of jan 2008 i went into labour just after 12 mid day, it was the longest day of my life,we were up in the hospital just after 4,i was in real bad pain around half 7 so they brought me down to the labour ward, i was too late for any pain relief, i gave birth to my beautiful baby girl at 8:15pm ,weighing 5lbs 2oz... I was so sure i was having a boy all the months through, when i was told it was a girl my heart broke in two... I was really hoping to hear my baby cry but it was the most quitest room i have ever been in,it was so hard and i really do feel for anyone who has gone through the pain and horror of loosing a child...
Mothers day was yesterday and was sooooooo hard :( really waanted u here with me .. I miss u sooooooooo much baby, ur forever in my heart, i love u endlessly pet x x x x x
My baby girl xxx
Im in bits here writting this as i am thinking of u alot today.. I think of u every day but its that bit harder today for some reason.. Ur little cousin Karlin is gonna b called for his op soon and i have told his mammy that i will ask u to look after him thru his tough lil journey, poor lil thing.. Hold his wee hand for us baby girl please and keep him safe in ur angel wings
Born Asleep - by Unknown Author
“Born Asleep" - such a beautiful phrase,
Always touches me to the core.
The broken cries of a Mother's heart
When it just can't take anymore.
I open my heart, one Mum to another,
So you never lose your hope,
That although it gets no easier,
I promise you'll learn to cope.
Remember your Angel is sleeping
In a world much kinder than ours
And will always be there to hold your hand
Even in your darkest hours.
My own little Angel will keep an eye,
And play with yours in their park.
But you must find your love and strength,
And feed your own little spark.
You'll never be alone my friend,
I will always understand.
If the tides loom up to swallow you,
Just reach out and grab my hand.
XX
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play the fool
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel xx
Born Still - by Unknown Author
Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby Goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting her sleepy head?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you’re to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.
Do you know the heartache
Knowing she's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?
Unfortunately we do XX
I WAS HERE
♥ღ♥ I stood beside your bed last night,
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
quietly in your sleep.
I touched you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour coffee,
You were thinking of how much you
love and long to hold me.
I was with you at the store today,
Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today,
You tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you,
that I'm not really there.
I walked with you to the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you,
I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired,
and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know,
that I was standing there.
It's possible for me to be
so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty,
"I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then
smiled, I think you knew,
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.
The day is over, I smile and watch
you yawning and say
"goodnight, God bless,
I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and
we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to
show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out
then come home to be with me ♥ღ♥
..¤•.¸.•¤*¤•..°áƒ¦°*¤•.¸•¤**
If memories keep us closer
Then we are never far apart
For you are always in my mind
And forever in my heart
..¤•.¸.•¤*¤•..°áƒ¦°*¤•.¸•¤**
I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
But the waves washed it away.
I then wrote your name in my heart
And that is where it will stay!
..¤•.¸.•¤*¤•..°áƒ¦°*¤•.¸•¤**
your mummy sent this to me and i am now returning it to you
love and kisses for an angel
..¤•.¸.•¤*¤•..°áƒ¦°*¤•.¸•¤**
If memories keep us closer
Then we are never far apart
For you are always in my mind
And forever in my heart
..¤•.¸.•¤*¤•..°áƒ¦°*¤•.¸•¤**
I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
But the waves washed it away.
I then wrote your name in my heart
And that is where it will stay!
..¤•.¸.•¤*¤•..°áƒ¦°*¤•.¸•¤**
your mummy sent this to me and i am now returning it to you
love and kisses for an angel
⊱♥⊰ ANGEL WINGS YOU WEAR... ⊱♥⊰~
The day you left broke our hearts
and the tears fell like rain,
but knowing that you now have wings
helps to ease the pain.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
We know now when the snow falls
it is Angel dust from you
and when we see a shooting star
our Angel just passed through.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
The rain drops do not make us sad
for they are not tears,
but sprinkles of love falling down,
our Angel again is near.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
The winter cold has even changed,
Jack Frost no longer exists,
it's now a visit from our Angel
and he's left a special gift.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
You also visit in the night,
your wings flutter with grace,
we know now when we awaken
that an Angel has kissed our face.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
When the days are warm and bright
and the sun shines from above,
we feel the warmth wrap around us,
you've given an Angel hug.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
You are with us at all times,
every day and night,
you try to end the pain we have
and the tears that we still cry.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
Though Heaven is your home now
and Angel wings you wear,
you stay close to those you love,
until they join you there.
⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰
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